•Age?
Eighteen.
•Sex?
Female.
•Label yourself (prep, goth, druggie, weirdo, etc.)
No label.
•How long have you been cutting?
Four years.
•Favorite tool?
Blade.
•Where (place) do you cut (school, home, etc.)?
Home.
•Do you have to hide your whole arm(s) (wrists, forearms, & upper arms, etc.)?
Wrists occasionally and always thighs.
•Do you have to wear long-sleeves & long-pants all the time?
Not long sleeves, I cover my wrists with bracelets, but I have to cover my thighs.
•Do you cut on your stomach, or chest?
I have done.
•Are your legs, arms, & other body parts covered in scars?
Yes.
•What’s your favorite excuse to use when someone asks about a cut?
I’ve never been questioned.
•Have you ever been hospitalized because of your cutting?
No.
•Off the top of your head, about how many scars do you have?
I can’t count.
•Do you have (diagnosed) depression, and/or bipolar/bpd?
Yes, clinical depression and slight bipolar.
•Who knows you cut?
A few friends, not many, just the ones who I know wont tell. I don’t like anyone to know.
•Have you ever been caught cutting?
No.
•Have your parents ever confronted you about a bloody sleeve, or towel?
No, they don’t know.
•Did you have a good childhood?
Fucking terrible.
•Why do you cut?
Because I used to get angry, but then I would get sent to the doctors and put on meds so cutting is easier, better and drug free. And I can’t cope with all the shit I’ve been through.
•Have you ever talked to a therapist or counselor?
Yes, she was shit.
•Do you want to stop cutting (but can’t because of addiction)?
Yes I do, I don’t want my children to think that it’s okay.
•Do you like cutting?
Yes, I suppose I do.
•How many times have you tried to commit suicide?
Twice.
•What are your views on cutting, and other self-injury?
I’m a hypocrite, but don’t start, is all I have to say. Addiction takes over.
•Do you like watching movies with self-injury?
Never seen one.
•Do you like looking at pictures of self-injury?
They usually trigger me, so no.
•Do you sometimes envy other people (non-self-injurers)?
Always.
•Have you ever taken pictures of your cuts/scars?
Yes.
•Do you want to die?
No, not any more.
•Have you ever done a school assignment on cutting, or self-injury?
No.
•What do you like to listen to while cutting/depression/etc.
My thoughts really.
•Have you ever needed stitches from cutting?
No.
•Do you dream about cutting?
No.
•What do you use to bandage your cuts?
I don’t.
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15 days!
That’s the longest I’ve gone without self harming for four years. I can’t explain how proud of myself I am.
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